About a month ago, I was in the laundry room switching loads and to say my heart was heavy would be an understatement. I was praying and had tears running down my face because I have prayed this same prayer so many times and it seems to continually go unanswered. To be honest, in this particular situation I feel completely lost and am not even sure what to pray for most of time. I can spiral into a dark mental place quickly and it becomes hard for me to get out of it and not allow it to affect my day. This particular day was a special day in our family and I was trying hard to fight the spiral because I wanted to be happy.
I started taking deep breaths as a way to calm myself down and a sense of peace and calm washed over me. These thoughts came to me so clearly.
Do you have enough for today? Yes. Well then, you have all that you need.
These were such simple words but so powerful. Nothing has changed in this situation in the past month. In fact, in some ways it is worse and I feel just as lost. I have no idea if I am getting any closer to a resolution or if I will ever get one. My attitude has changed though. When I start to get worked up, I remind myself that I have enough (whatever enough that may be- strength, courage, provision, etc) for today. I remind myself of God’s continual kindness in my life and rest in the fact that even when I feel like I don’t have enough, He is enough. So for now, I will cling on to Romans 12:12 “Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, faithful in prayer” and allow God to be enough.